Clearing the air...

Ok...here's the deal. I hate when people talk about me & don't just talk to me. I know it's a sensitive subject but you all can ask me anything & I'll tell you straight up. I've never been afraid to tell people my life story. I just don't want to post it on my personal blog & have some weird stalker come & get me in the night you know? I'm scared of dudes. If you've wondered why Kb hasn't been in my blog lately here's why...

Fact...I am seperated from KB
Fact...Nothing's official yet
Fact...I deserve to be treated good
Fact...It was totally my decision
Fact...He's totally kissing my ass
Fact...It's complicated
Fact...I'm still happy
Fact...He's trying to win me back
Fact...I love him dearly
Fact...He loves me too
Fact...He's been gone since November
Fact...He's working in Wyoming on the oil field
Fact...I am a great wife
Fact...I'm really lonely but do great on my own
Fact...I hide it well
Fact...I'm scared because I don't know where my life is going
Fact...I need friends & support

Fiction...I'm going for a record on how many marriages I can have
Fiction...He left me
Fiction...I'm a crazy psycho that sucks at marriage
Fiction...I make good choices

On that note....I'm an extremely happy person that doesn't care what others think. Some people might be offended by the fact that I've been married twice & maybe divorced twice...I'm sorry about that.
So there is my story. Sorry to be a bummer.

Wishing I looked as good as Sinead in her younger years.

The other night while Wellz was talking on the phone I became very impatient with my hair. Getting my hair cut by professionals always make me nervous. Not because I think they will mess up but I really hate feeling trapped for an hour or two with a complete stranger with forced conversation. I don't know any good friends that cut hair so I always choose someone new. Plus I'm not really a hair person. I have really thin and fine hair, like a baby. It never looks pretty and it isn't one of my good physical qualities.
So the other night I pulled out the clippers and shaved my head. Having short hair doesn't bother me but I do get a lot of stares. I'm not insecure about people thinking I am a boy (AM I A BOY?) because I have huge pregnant boobs and a matching belly.
Usually I cut my hair because of depression so when Wellz walked in and saw my hair he replied "Heat, what's wrong? Do we need to talk?"

I'm fine. Although this morning I found seven gray hair and now I'm feeling pretty old.

ps Never become pregnant or shave your head if you don't like to be touched by complete strangers.

Baby Names

when i was at the gunn's my prego friend came over. they haven't decided on a name so danika and i started spurting off names. i've always been interested in names. when the sears catalogue would come at Christmas time i would make a list of my pretend family--usually about 8 kids mostly boys--give them names and then shop for them. little did i know how incapable i would be of mothering 8 kids. who knew it took energy and patience. and being pregnant.
anytime i had a crush or dated a guy i would try out my favorite names with their last names. even if i had no intention of being serious. i've kept lists of names in my journals. in 92 i had grant and andrew but later crossed that off because i started dating andy. in 94 i had hank and ethan (this was before the mad rush to name your boy that), chandler (friends?), tabitha. in 96 i had stella and hazel (temple view r.v.). i pretty much stuck with stella and fred and even ran them by dan before we got married. he said they were fine...until i got prego and he nixed stella. i was VERY upset. seriously, it caused tension in our marriage. it was hard picking a name for chloe. dan didn't like any i liked. like evie. i liked clover too (it came to me while in the temple--hello, revelation!?) but a lot of people had started naming their kids river and other in-tune-with-nature names so i was afraid of being grouped with the hippies. i've tried to get dan to let me change her name to clover-- he could still call her chloe--but he won't let me. her middle name is belen. i heard it on my mission. it means bethlehem.
delivering chloe was not fun so before i got prego again i made dan promise to let me have naming rights. i was happy to have a girl so i could use the name stella. the day i found out i was having a girl i read a magazine that predicted stella as the up-coming popular name. lame. her middle name is kate.
and fred. when i was in highschool i saw an episode of oprah (weird, i don't care much for her). she had on this society, nation-wide club thingy of guys named fred. there was a cute little toddler. that's when i realized a cute kid (or one with a good personality) could get away with any name. and since my gpa is a legend to his bazillion grand and great-grandkids, i decided i would name a kid after him. but of course when i finally have a boy its becoming popular to give your kid a grandpa name. for the record, even though it appears that i'm following the trends, i'm actually ahead of them. we had a really hard time deciding on a middle name. we made a huge list. each of us chose 5 and then we gave them a score of 1-10. everett came in 2nd with owen and maddox tied for 1st. i let dan make the final choice. fred maddox. (he didn't know it was a celebrity baby name so he wasn't following a trend. ) if he was a girl i liked petra and dan suggested olive. which surprised me because its a good name and he hates olives. our next boy (through adoption) will be named clive.
heather, do you have names picked out? anyway, what names do you guys like or why did you choose the ones you used? stake your claim here.
sorry for the long post...one last thing. according to the howmanyofme.com site there are only 2 katie lariviere's. and very few boys named sue.

Happy New Year!!

Happy New Year girls!

Is anyone going out to do anything fun & exciting? We'll be staying home as always. "First Night" just ins't for me!

Aquatica - coming Spring 2008

This place looks awesome. It's like Sea World meets Wet-n-Wild.
I totally want to go! Anyone want to come with?

AquaticaBySeaWold
The website loads very SSLLOOOOOWWWWWly.

Indian Food

Love the tips girls. Ang you said to grind up the Cardamoms, what about using Cardamom powder? My recipe calls for both and I was wondering if I could just use more cardamom powder in leu of the seeds. And Heat please send me your Tikki recipe I would like to compare it to the one I found on line. I basically found the one that took a lot of spices with quit a bit of prep work and figured It was probably a good one. Im pretty clueless! Thanks All!

Fat and Happy

Unfortunately I am not the one that is fat AND happy, but my little guy sure is. So how many of you gals are ready for Christmas? I mean in the commercialized sense. Husbands are so hard to shop for. This year I decided I would give of myself and learn how to cook India food, So I am buying all the spices and am going to cook Chicken Tikka Masala One of Chad favorite dishes. Wish me luck or if any of you have tips I would greatly appreciate them. What is everyone else doing for the Christmas break. I'd love to get together with whoever is in St. G.

Tony's Grove

I had to cheat to0 by posting a picture from summer time. Tony's Grove is a small lake a ways up the canyon. It was beautiful. The water was surprisingly warm! I don't know how it could possibly be that warm, but it was. We also saw a bald eagle soaring above us. We will be going there again for sure.

Home sweet home

This is the home that we live in right now. We rent it from Chris. Mark (Matt's brother)and Alli also live here. They live in the apartment in the basement. They are awesome and we will miss living close by. The house is really close to campus.

Happy

First of all I would like to say how COOL life here in Logan. We have been so happy here in every aspect of our lives. Work, school, building, family, romance, branch, and home. After a week of living here I just felt like this was the place meant for us. I'm even skinnier than I have ever been since I married Matt. What I should post a picture of is me looking outrageously happy! but for now I will post a picture of the home we are building in Richmond. We just got our windows put in two nights ago. It was freaking cold too.

on your marks..

here are some triathlons in utah we could do:

a short course in logan on april 12

a short course in st. g on april 19

a women's only tri in bountiful on may 17

these are really short, easy races that any of you could finish. if you think you need a little extra help then you can read this book.

of course, the whole point of me doing triathlons is to change the body i have now.

i didn't list the st. g triathlon because i don't really like it and it costs a billion dollars. it also lost a lot of coolness since jared sold it.

if you don't want to do a whole triathlon we could do a relay team or find some running race. i also loved the cache valley tri at the end of the summer. but i was looking for a quicker deadline.

let me know if you are on board or if you have a different suggestion.

my bad

so i kinda dropped the ball on the photo a day gig. i guess i just don't get out much. and when i do i forget the camera. or if i have the camera i don't take the time to pull over and snap a picture. because kids are ticking time bombs without an accurate count-down. one second you're browsing the frozen food aisle and the next it's WWIII. you abort mission and drive directly home (not stopping to take photos) screaming, "i'm taking back all your Christmas presents!"
i owe you a couple of pictures so i plan on surprising you at my convenience.
who's turn is it now?

Holy Family

we got to hang out in a barn with a donkey while people stared and took pictures of us. it was cool. more about this on our family blog.

cheating

sorry for the lack of picture yesterday. i forgot to take the camera with me when i went out. today is so dreary. everything is grey. so i'm going to post pictures of things around here that we like. like maple canyon (easy climbing):

this was a year ago. i was skinny. now i'm 80% fat and lazy. so...how does a fitness goal sound? anyone want to help motivate me by getting in shape together? we could each sign up for a triathlon/marathon/5k/whatever in our home towns or we could meet and do the same race together. any takers?

Looking for the right Christmas gift?

no, you can't have my boys... i just figured out the picture thing, but i'm not sure about the layout, so they're staying here where they are, i don't want to push my luck.

so, i'm on a roll. two posts in less than two days. awesome. angie, this is dedicated to you particularly. these auctions have ended, which i'm sure you'll be sorely disappointed about. but scroll down so that you can read the original description. anyone that served a mission to latin speaking countries (or have ever made friends with a mexican) will particularly enjoy the first selection
http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=280174052632&ru=http%3A%2F%2Fsearch.ebay.com%3A80%2Fsearch%2Fsearch.dll%3Ffrom%3DR40%26_trksid%3Dm37%26satitle%3D280174052632%26category0%3D%26fvi%3D1
or
http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=280174046998&ru=http%3A%2F%2Fsearch.ebay.com%3A80%2Fsearch%2Fsearch.dll%3Ffrom%3DR40%26_trksid%3Dm37%26satitle%3D280174046998%26category0%3D%26fvi%3D1
or even
http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=280174040130&ru=http%3A%2F%2Fsearch.ebay.com%3A80%2Fsearch%2Fsearch.dll%3Ffrom%3DR40%26_trksid%3Dm37%26satitle%3D280174040130%26category0%3D%26fvi%3D1

and i figured out how to post pics, so even though it has nothing to do with the blog topic, here is my lincoln and sam. lincoln wanted to be curious george for halloween, but then he decided it was a gorilla, which you see pictured here. if you look hard enough you can see remnants of my double chin i attempted to crop out.

holy crap i finally got into the blog

and ye-ha. so, for months i have been reading all about your lives and feeling 1. like my friends are super cool and 2. a little snakey-predatorish secretly reading your blog without you really knowing it. you may be thinking, 'i thought sarah worked at ibm for 5 years' and to that i say you're right. but it still took me a year to figure out how to blog. so anyhooters, i'm attaching a pic of my boys and just wanted to say love you all and i'm excited to be a bonafied member of your club.
-- actually i can't attach a pic (shocker). maybe next time. just saying hello.

front yard views

we love where we live. not slc. not provo. but easy access to both. american fork canyon is just up the road. there is close climbing. we get ski passes every year. and i love that our neighborhood/ward (same thing) is very defined. it makes it easier to get to know people.

when we first moved here 4 years ago (our house is about 9 years old) there were 40 kids in nursery. stella is in nursery now. i think there are 3 different classes. i love that there are so many kids. every day of summer and on snow days there are kids everywhere.

but we are thinking of selling because we are out-growing our house and now is a good time to sell. i always liked change but now i'm lazy. i like our neighbors--i even know most of their names. i just have to tell myself that utah is probably filled with neighborhoods of good people like ours. there are lots of pretty places we would love to live--like idaho, montana, colorado--but we don't want to live far away from both our families. flying with kids is a pain and very expensive. so we have to be in driving distance to at least one side.

I'm confused

I realized I don't know everybody on this blog. I know Katie, Angie, Heather, Danika.
Who else is there? Everyone is disguised.

Lehi 1

the view from my back window. looking west. utah lake is to the left, point of the mountain is north.

last one from St. Looey - Logan University

Since Logan is the whole reason we're in St. Louis, I decided to post a pic. The campus is huge, and really pretty (except at this time of year) with acres and acres of trees and lakes. The school part is pretty small though, with fewer buildings than Dixie and only about 2,000 students (20% are LDS, I've heard). I'm on campus a couple times a week either going to the fitness center or to the clinic, but since there are so few students, it seems like I know everyone. Tye and I are SOOOOOO super excited that we only have 9 more months here--we can't wait to move on to the next chapter in our lives (in which we hope to actually get a paycheck!)