3 fears

in no particular order:
1. one of my kids getting cancer (or some other terminal disease). basically, the death of a child. it would really suck if it was caused by me--backing over them, not watching them near water...the guilt would be horrible. but watching a kid suffer through cancer is something i fear.
2. getting migrains. i get maybe 3 headaches a year. they are usually caused by a tense neck and go away quickly after taking a painkiller. but my dad gets migrains and it doesn't look fun.
3. crashing a car into water with my kids in the car. i think of this everytime we drive past a river. and many other random times. i have gone through it in my mind so many times. dan would get chloe because she is the heaviest and he swims better. i would hold onto the kid's shirt and hope it stayed on...would we be able to get the carseat straps undone fast enough? now that we have 3 kids it would be impossible so whenever i start to think about it i have to stop myself. i feel like i might have a panic attack. my heart really starts beating faster. i used to tell myself to not worry, it will never happen. until this story was on the news:

Capt. Guy Adams, Carbon County Sheriff's Office: "The vehicle started to slide and they unbuckled the kids from the inside of the vehicle. The wall of water come down and it just started to roll, they were just reaching for kids, and trying to find what they could. And it just so happens the one-year old didn't get picked up."

am i crazy? is it normal to worry about things like this? make me feel better--everyone tell what your 3 biggest fears are.

Feeling dumb...

You know how Jay Leno does his "JayWalking" bit where he goes out and asks people on the street the easiest questions ever and you laugh at how stupid those people are and you wish you could get interviewed because you would know all the answers?
Well, here's your chance to feel really smart--or if you're like me, maybe not so much. This quiz takes questions from the naturalization test that you have to take to become a U.S. Citizen. I realized I'm clueless about the difference between a senator, a congressman, a representative...I guessed on several of these but managed to get an 88%--how did you do?

Do as I say...PLEASE not as I do!!

The other day Sierra was telling me about the girls at her school feeling her back to see if she was wearing a bra (she's in 5th grade). I remember the same thing happening to me at school.
Also, they sing the same songs we did, for example, "Joy to the world, the school burned down."
It's weird that they do the same things we did in school.

So it made me start thinking about the really stupid things we did. Remember at lunch & after school how we would pass each other out? How stupid were we?

I recall one time I passed Shannon Lister out & she fell on her stereo & got hurt. Another time I passed my sister Ashlynn out at our house. She fell so hard that I couldn't catch her & she smacked her head on the floor. When she came to she asked if she had hit her head because it hurt. I told her no & it wasn't until a couple years ago that I told her the truth!

We were pretty retarded.